Two amazing friends!

I have been having some really good conversations with a couple really close and good friends lately and I am just awe struck at how awesomely wise and amazing they both are. We...well, I guess I can't say "we"...I have been trying to understand and grasp all around what exactly God is showing me in my friendships with these women, and I think I can almost understand what it is that He wants me to see.

You see, I was talking with one of these amazing women the other night about my feelings and frustrations with my feelings towards someone and she just said the most awesome thing, that is pretty much what dawned on my in the shower a couple of weeks ago (I would enter a link to my MySpace blog where I blogged about it, but it no longer exists...). She said, "Maybe God put you with us (these two great friends) because He wants you to learn what is like to love a woman as a friend and nothing more...not trying to lead the relationship where you want it to go."

"HOLY POO!!" I know that it's pretty much re-worded from my thoughts from my other blog, but this is different, because I know that I'm not the only one struggling with this...I'm not the only one frustrated with this whole, "I'm attracted to you and you to me, but we can't do anything about it..." place; I'm not weird or anything. And to be perfectly honest, because I know that we both have times when we're just hard pressed about this matter, we BOTH are experiencing similar things...

Yes, we process it a bit differently and deal with it in our own ways...but, some how, in some sadistic way, it brings peace to know that she isn't perfect; that God is working on her too (which is just a weird concept, but a realistic one...long story, don't ask). Like it says in Romans 5 (which I just recently blogged about), "Let us rejoice in our sufferings, for we all know that suffering brings perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope."

I now see that without these times of awkwardness, or tension, we wouldn't be able to be such good and close friends now. Yeah, every now and then something might come up where we might be a little weird with each other, but once we talk about it and get it out in the open...we're right as rain! We are best friends...God has given me two great, best friends in these two women and I thank Him for them!

And now I see and thank Him for those tough times, for all those up-hill battles, because without them, I would as close to them as I am, nor would I be who I am today. Praise God for my hard times! (Does that sound a bit strange? It does to me, but oh well, I don't care!) God just keeps bringing me new surprises for each chapter of my story. It truly is exciting!