To be perfectly honest, I have no idea what brought this on. I was minding my own business, getting ready for tomorrow when I started thinking...And eventually thought that it would make an okay blog/discussion starter. Here are the statements/questions that ran through my head:
How can I stop [insert any kind of addiction/constant problem]? I can't stop, not on my own. Hell, it's my own will that wants to do [inserted problem]. "Do it with God's strength!" is what preachers teach. How can I do that? How do I access "God's strength"? How can I be strong enough to gain God's strength, and not stop [said problem]? I am not strong enough to turn away, nor am I strong enough to turn to God.
Now...I've pretty much been raised in the pentecostal way, and I can't shake all those charismatic preachers at the pulpit shoutin', "Turn to God!" for strength, comfort, security, etc. I'm finding that it's not that easy (duh). Few teachers out there will teach that a Christian walk is "easy" and those that do should be run out of town.
I don't know how to turn. Humans are creatures of habit, and some habits are harder than others to break.
Please don't question my beliefs. I know very well that there is a God and very much a Devil. I've felt and seen both extremes in life; some personally, others I bore witness to. I've seen people torn with stress and panic calmed in a blink of an eye. I've seen where curious minds have gone to try and explain "what if God isn't God?" or "what is God?" At times, I've wondered myself whether God really is God, but I'm always drawn back to the fact that if He wasn't, than life, EVERYTHING would be coincidence. (What a laugh!)
"By faith, we walk" is the motto that got pounded into my brain many years ago. I know there is a difference between knowing and believing, and you believe by faith, but can knowing be faith? So I ask this: How do you know if you have faith?
I know God exists. I'm pretty sure He likes me and wants to help. How do you turn?
Thursday, April 02, 2009
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