Okay so I go into work today, just like I do every Friday, and start doing my thing...Since there is a big class Thursday nights that use a lot of equipment, I generally have to clean up after them and reorganize everything they used. So I do that, and when I'm done, I look at my equipment check out board and see what is going out today. Hmmm...cool, so now that everything is where it's supposed to be, I can now set aside that equipment for the people when they come to pick it up. Alright! Done. Now what else is there...oh yeah, make sure the editing room are clean...As I do this I get to the audio studio and the door is shut and locked. No big deal, I go to get the key, and the key box is gone...hmmm, wired...I call my boss to see if she knew where it was, but only get her voice mail. I leave the message and hang up. Well that's all done. Now what? Well, everything is done that needed to be done, okay, time to be a lab monitor and sit out front waiting for people. About 20 minutes later, my boss walks in and says, I want you to stop working for the day, get your stuff and come with me to HR...
*Wheels come to a screeching halt* "I'm sorry, did I just hear you correctly? Are you firing me?" And then she goes in to these different "budgetary" reasons why I'm being let go, and by the way I'm being paid out of a budget that was set aside specifically for my position and nothing else. So I ask her why I'm really being let go and all she says is, "It's time; I need you to go."
Um...okay, why? Same response...Alright, now I'm hurt. If she had given me any reason, I would have been cool and postmodern about it and said, alright, if that's how you feel, okay. But she didn't! No reason whatsoever! That burns.
And so now I'm currently making about 35 % of what I was before, and according to my boss, that 35% is enough to "keep me going"...RIGHT! That's a laugh, I've been barely making it as it is, and I just bought a car for goodness' sake.
Oh well, right? I'm trying to see a bright side of this, but because I have no job offers on the table, it's a bit dark and hazy right now. I'd appreciate prayer for provision right about now. Thanks.
Friday, March 31, 2006
Saturday, March 25, 2006
Investments
It seems to me that we never fully let go or get over something that we invest a lot of time and effort and what ever resources. One person specifically has triggered these thoughts, but the more I think about it, the farther back I think and realize where I've been, what I've had, what I've gone through, who was there...
You see, I have my instant messenger program open next to my web browser and a certain someone is logged it right now that I feel a bit nervous talking to. Not necessarily because of how I feel now, but how I used to feel. Anyway, what I'm trying to set up is this...the things/people we invest in, become a part of us.
I remember back in high school, my freshmen year; I was lost. I ended up hanging out with some people that just weren't that great of an influence, but they were willing to let me hang around, so naturally I did. After a rough year of trying to be myself and virtually living under my brother's shadow, I was just as lost if not more so because my brother graduated and I was alone. Fortunately, I met some good people that saw me and started investing in me time and effort into being friends. These people, my soon to be friends were different from the others because they didn't know me, they had no preconceptions or expectations, they liked me for who I was.
Once trust was built up and many common qualities were developed, I started investing time into them and myself; we became a close family. Through the next three years we hung out and spent time inside and outside of school just hanging around, being ourselves. Every lunch we would sit in a specific area of the campus and we would sit, eat, talk, play our guitars, play random card games...we were happy.
One day we all graduated and when the summer was over, many of us parted ways; some went to this college, others went to that college and a couple went to yonder college. Hardly any of us kept in touch all that much. Eventually I lost track of where people were and how they've been doing; which brings us to the present.
Like this single person I spent a lot of time getting to know and opening up to them, these people from high school have become a part of me. They may not all be a part of me that is on the surface all the time, but somewhere inside me, I'm still sitting on the grass eating lunch with them...Somewhere inside, I'm still walking along the beach to a lifeguard tower talking for hours.
If any of you are reading this, whether from high school or college, I would not be who I am if it were not for YOU. Thank you for investing in me.
You see, I have my instant messenger program open next to my web browser and a certain someone is logged it right now that I feel a bit nervous talking to. Not necessarily because of how I feel now, but how I used to feel. Anyway, what I'm trying to set up is this...the things/people we invest in, become a part of us.
I remember back in high school, my freshmen year; I was lost. I ended up hanging out with some people that just weren't that great of an influence, but they were willing to let me hang around, so naturally I did. After a rough year of trying to be myself and virtually living under my brother's shadow, I was just as lost if not more so because my brother graduated and I was alone. Fortunately, I met some good people that saw me and started investing in me time and effort into being friends. These people, my soon to be friends were different from the others because they didn't know me, they had no preconceptions or expectations, they liked me for who I was.
Once trust was built up and many common qualities were developed, I started investing time into them and myself; we became a close family. Through the next three years we hung out and spent time inside and outside of school just hanging around, being ourselves. Every lunch we would sit in a specific area of the campus and we would sit, eat, talk, play our guitars, play random card games...we were happy.
One day we all graduated and when the summer was over, many of us parted ways; some went to this college, others went to that college and a couple went to yonder college. Hardly any of us kept in touch all that much. Eventually I lost track of where people were and how they've been doing; which brings us to the present.
Like this single person I spent a lot of time getting to know and opening up to them, these people from high school have become a part of me. They may not all be a part of me that is on the surface all the time, but somewhere inside me, I'm still sitting on the grass eating lunch with them...Somewhere inside, I'm still walking along the beach to a lifeguard tower talking for hours.
If any of you are reading this, whether from high school or college, I would not be who I am if it were not for YOU. Thank you for investing in me.
Monday, March 20, 2006
Manhood
Today I have made an enormous step into "manhood"...I bought my first car!
[hurray goes the masses]
I bought a 1997 Honda Prelude that has been well taken care of and has a very low mileage for its age. I'm so stoked! Yipee for me!
That's it for now, until next time!
[hurray goes the masses]
I bought a 1997 Honda Prelude that has been well taken care of and has a very low mileage for its age. I'm so stoked! Yipee for me!
That's it for now, until next time!
Thursday, March 16, 2006
Been a while...
So it's been a while since I've blogged, but I think that's okay considering just about no body reads this probably. Anyway, a lot has happened recently and all of it is really leading me towards moving out of the place I'm at and into a new place with people I had forgotten were there and are now here.
I'm not quite sure if that makes sense, but yeah, it does to me...There are just layers upon layers of issues and stubbornness; I don't belong here, I never did and that's not really ready to be blogged, so just forget I said that... :)
Anyway, I also did something else that I haven't done in a very long time...I wrote!
I spent some time yesterday just sitting and melding with my guitar and a cool rif entered my head and soon after a cool story came about! At least I think it's pretty rad, and I've found that I have...well, "unique" taste compared to most of my friends.
I don't have a title for it yet, but here it is...take it for what you want.
I can feel you there
Waiting for me to break out
Waiting to take my life.
You show me many things
You teach me what I need.
Lead me on blindly
And throw me in.
It's do or die,
It's sink or swim
How can I follow
I've stopped breathing
I can feel your touch
Stretching across the sky
Stirring within my heart
Breaking chains within
Breaking chains...
You show me many things
You teach me what I need.
Lead me on blindly
And throw me in.
It's do or die,
It's sink or swim
You call I follow
It's time, let me begin.
I'm not quite sure if that makes sense, but yeah, it does to me...There are just layers upon layers of issues and stubbornness; I don't belong here, I never did and that's not really ready to be blogged, so just forget I said that... :)
Anyway, I also did something else that I haven't done in a very long time...I wrote!
I spent some time yesterday just sitting and melding with my guitar and a cool rif entered my head and soon after a cool story came about! At least I think it's pretty rad, and I've found that I have...well, "unique" taste compared to most of my friends.
I don't have a title for it yet, but here it is...take it for what you want.
I can feel you there
Waiting for me to break out
Waiting to take my life.
You show me many things
You teach me what I need.
Lead me on blindly
And throw me in.
It's do or die,
It's sink or swim
How can I follow
I've stopped breathing
I can feel your touch
Stretching across the sky
Stirring within my heart
Breaking chains within
Breaking chains...
You show me many things
You teach me what I need.
Lead me on blindly
And throw me in.
It's do or die,
It's sink or swim
You call I follow
It's time, let me begin.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
