Sad times...

So in two days, I will be turning twenty-three (23). I have no job. I have no girlfriend. I have no "place of my own." I think back to when I was WAY younger and all the plans and dreams I had; like being engaged when I graduated, working as either a recording engineer or live sound engineer, owning a car (no longer making payments). Things have changed so much since then. I don't have any of that stuff.

...I guess that's why they call them "dreams."...

What do I have? I finally have a car (I just purchased and started making payments). I have friends who like to hang out with me. I have "potential" (according to my parents). I have family. I also have many many bills each month that must be paid (sorry, the cynic in me couldn't resist).

I don't know where God is leading me, and I realize that our plans aren't perfect *which is why they hardly ever work*, but waiting to see where God has planned for me is taxing. I'll be 23, a good age to be in the beginnings of a career, to be dating or even engaged. However, I'm unemployed, single, and starting to become depressed because the "big picture" is blurring out of sight; it's still there, but I can't see it any more.

Life goes on, right? I hope so. Maybe one day I will be beginning a career, maybe one day I will have a girlfriend, maybe one day I will dream again. Maybe one day. Until then...